🗣 Alexa!! Play Me, Myself, and I

It is the end of August and I’ve been away for quite a while. There has been so much going on in the world that nothing I had to say ever seemed appropriate, but here I am anyway. 

One thing I’ve been battling with during this time of quarantine and uncertainty is being alone and semi-loneliness. What better way to beat the lonely blues than to plan something with someone else. I planned to go the beach with a “friend” and was looking forward to just not being alone for a change. Long story short, I ended up going by myself, and let me tell you that was exactly what I needed. Yes, I was still alone but I was alone somewhere else. I was away with no cares in the world. I ate what I wanted to eat, watched what I wanted to watch on tv, did absolutely nothing when I wanted to do absolutely nothing. 

Now this was not the first solo trip I’ve taken. I’ve done 3 in the past and they were always great experiences! In 2016 I decided that I needed to get used to being by myself and not relying on people to do things that I wanted to do. I missed out on so many activities because I didn’t have anyone to do them with me. That year I make a conscience decision to make plans by myself. I went to a basketball game and had purchased a ticket to the Ruff Ryders reunion (because I stan DMX and there was no way I wasn’t going). It was then I learned that I am enough. I don’t NEED anyone else to do things with me. At some point I lost that and I started not doing things again. I would randomly decide that I was going to go somewhere alone but in the back of my head I was hoping there would be someone to invite. This beach trip reminded me once again that I am pretty dope all by myself. I had time alone to think, plan, and make decisions because there were no distractions and no “noise”. At this time, I was also completely stressed out and over my job. The one promise I made myself was I would not come back the same way I left. I kept that promise. I came back so rested and at peace. I will be 35 in 8 days (Sept 7) and I have decided to dedicate the year of 35 to myself. I am going to spend quality time with myself on purpose. Continuously reminding myself that I am enough. 

These are unprecedented times. Do whatever you feel is necessary to make sure your head and heart are in the right place. Work on your business, start a business, start a blog, rest, sleep, workout, get outside, whatever it takes. Find your spark and feel it!