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My Neck, My Back…and Everything Else
Well, I…we made it to 2021. We’re 19 days in and what a journey it’s been already. 2020 said “aht aht I’m not quite done”! I’ve been slightly MIA for a little bit because I’ve been dealing with stuff and didn’t feel like I had much to say. But I’m here, I’m back, and I’m ready to talk. One thing I’ve had drilled into my mind over the last almost 6 months is “listen to your body”! This body of mine has taken me through some things. I guess I’ll start from the beginning. In 2010 I was diagnosed with endometriosis. What is endometriosis? In the most general Google terms:…
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🗣 Alexa!! Play Me, Myself, and I
It is the end of August and I’ve been away for quite a while. There has been so much going on in the world that nothing I had to say ever seemed appropriate, but here I am anyway. One thing I’ve been battling with during this time of quarantine and uncertainty is being alone and semi-loneliness. What better way to beat the lonely blues than to plan something with someone else. I planned to go the beach with a “friend” and was looking forward to just not being alone for a change. Long story short, I ended up going by myself, and let me tell you that was exactly what…
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Is It Still 2020?!?
Well 2020 is still showing out. I speak an excellent remainder of the year over anyone reading this sentence right now. I’ve been sitting in the house bored, thinking you should really post something but I didn’t think I had anything to talk about. My anxiety has been through the roof and like everyone else, life is crazy, scary, and unpredictable right now. So, let’s talk about that. Let’s talk about COVID-19 aka Rona aka The Rona…..what in the world is this?? Am I the only one that is still trying to wrap my head around what is really going on? People are seriously out here dying and having to…
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7 Things I’ve Learned In 2020 So Far
Are you asking how I could have learned 7 things already and its only February? Well honey, last month when I said 2020 was trying me I meant it. Some of these things I learned on my own but others my therapist assisted with the revelation. So, let’s just get into it…. A moment in the past is just that I’ve noticed that I tend to get stuck in moments. I will let one good moment outweigh a ton of bad ones. I compare my current situation and feelings to moments that happened years ago and ask myself what happened. When I know full well that the time between then…
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Twenty Twenty
Well, Happy 2020!! Am I the only one that wants a redo? Like take me back to Dec. 30th real quick so I can try again. 2020 has already been interesting. We’re only 13 days in and I’ve already noticed two things that are holding back: Holding on too long and fear. Holding on Oh man, I am the queen of lingering thoughts and not moving past things in a timely manner. I question a lot of things that I subconsciously know I won’t get an answer to. So, in essence I’m wasting precious time and energy on things that don’t deserve my time and energy. I have to learn to…
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Where Have I Been?
It’s been around 6 weeks since my last post and that was never my intention. When I was planning the execution of this blog I told myself I didn’t want to create a schedule for posting that would overwhelm me. I wrote a couple of posts so I would already have some ready to relieve some of the pressure, but then life…. You know how everything will be going good and then all of a sudden life says “nah, it’s been too easy”. I was supposed to have a post the day after my birthday, but clearly that didn’t happen. I found myself in a familiar but yet unknown space. Familiar…
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Friends….How Many of Us Have Them?
Urban Dictionary defines a friend as: someone you love and who loves you, someone you respect and who respects you, someone whom you trust and who trusts you. A friend is honest and makes you want to be honest, too. A friend is loyal. Over the years my thoughts on friendship has changed. I had to start drawing the line between friends and associates. Now at the ripe age of 33, that line has become bolder. Through the years “friendships” have ended and others have grown stronger. I used to feel like I needed closure or to fix issues when things didn’t feel right but I had to realize that…
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Not My Daddy
November 11, 2013 is a day I will never forget. It started out as a regular day. I was off work for Veterans Day so I went to High Point to visit my sister and nephew. I rode with my sister to Durham and hung out with her for a few hours. On my drive back to Charlotte I laughed and joked with my mom as we usually do. I had been home for less than 30 minutes when my sister called and said, “Are you sitting down?” I told her yes and she continued to say “daddy passed away”. Just like it was five minutes ago I clearly remember saying,…
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Hello World!
You may be asking “what are these sparks that I’m supposed to feel?” and that is a great question with a simple answer. When I was trying to decide on a name, I knew I wanted it to represent me but at the same time I thought about one of my friends telling a friend to check out a blog on a website that includes my name. Fortunately, and unfortunately, I don’t have a common name with an even more uncommon spelling. I could imagine people typing “sparkle”, “sparkel”, and anything other than “sparkal” and getting frustrated and just giving up. Going back to college, Fayetteville State University (Bronco Pride), people…
